"stand right there"

“stand right there”
by [edge] & [eyes]

[edge]
stand right there…
go about and contemplate why you are standing in front of me.
speaking to the aura around you
but still silence over comes my tongue
and i am mute.
my tongue entwines itself in agony becuz
i cant seem to find the lyrical lessons that taught me
my vocabulary…
made me blind to see a celestial entity
that confides in a physical angelic body..
standing in front of me…
tryin to unwind
my mind from its twisted dilemma
but i cant
so i stop and just look at you
standing right there…

[eyes]
it’s on the tip of my twisted tongue
the things i meant to say to you
if you could just wait a minute…
would wait a second
don’t leave yet
wait for the moment you catch my gaze…
even though i have been blinded by your aura
my blind eyes can still see you
the curves of your lips mesmerized me
as i keep imagining them speaking to me
tell me something
tell me something please!


TO WELLA!
eye contact
erase my words meant to be spoken.
becuz your presence has already tangled my mind to think intangible thoughts
creeping up the side of my mind closing my eyes
capturing yours...
creating tear drops…that
craft endless ripples of rhetoric that exploit my infatuation
that awaits to be unleashed into your life for satisfaction...
just for you to smile...
smile so i can paint my emotions onto a fresh canvas
where i can see you day and night..
where i can see you all the time
other than in my mind…
where my expressions can flourish
and through the strokes of my paintbrush
i can mimic the emotions that i desire to paint
to paint the invisible world that i see myself in with you
to paint the endless dreams that i created with you
to paint me and you…
but still you stand there…

oblivious to the crazy thoughts
running a maze through my brainwaves
twisted among the things i know i can and can’t do
wrapped around the reality that i am forced to live in
when i see you
…standing there
the things i wanted to say
contradict all the reality you are to me
that i’m forced to live by
the things i know can’t be said
in them i find all that’s been haunting the world inside of me
they release everything that keeps my tongue twisted
my words have now become
useless ghosts constantly haunting me
in a world that only exists in my brain
only there have i been able to express what it is
that even i can’t explain
while i stand here

and you stand right there
surrounding sounds suppress my lips to be soldered
muting my voice from being allowed to utter out one simple word..
but still
in eloquence your fingers sway
in confidence
so relaxed so subtle
nothing around you is broken…
and silence is jealous of the musical notation
that you implement into your elegant words spoken…
and still my voice is locked behind my lips…
in anticipation of freedom before my oppressed heart
is set free to seduce your silhouette with
eloquent beautifulness…
exquisite gorgeousness...
admiring adorableness...
but you still stand there in loneliness

i should probably just close my eyes
so that the sight of you doesn’t make me lose all i’ve meant to say
the thought of your loneliness upsets me even more
knowing that i can be your one necessary solution
either way
i’m still here left speechless
still searching for the words that must escape from my lips
trapped within my mouth filled with fear
worried that following my utters and stutters
you have the power to deny my very existence
as you walk away it will echo the breaking of my heart
with each step you take
leads me a step closer to heartache
and i’ll still be standing here with my twisted tongue
still so twisted

and you still stand there
reflection of your affection
is replicated and reproduced into the songs
of the sun and the moon
the stars and galaxies
which reminds me
of the infinities and possibilities that lie
in your eyes…
that lie in the touch of your hand…
which believes me to understand
that the harder i try i can...
i can get to you…
even though your are the center of attention
they don’t know you like i do...
they don’t see the sweet skin softly singing songs of supernovas
with the curve separation of your lips beautiful is reborn with a new connotation...
implicated into poetry
my undying emotions are associated
with the rebirths and redos
but there is no undos
if i get to finally meet you
if i get the strength and will together…
even if it takes forever…
not eternity will stop me
just waiting for the right time…
to say
hi.
i’m in like.
with you
but truth got the best of me…
i am obsolete
now i am in fear…
and now i cry with miserable tears…
becuz you still stand
right there…

why aren’t you standing next to me…?
i can’t keep relying on deja vu
to take me back to moments with you
to constantly keep bringing you back to me
you’re just another face
in a sea of so many people
but i’ve drowned in thought just looking for you
your name is my taboo
the manifestation of all i can’t touch
if only i could say something to you!
but with this twisted tongue
my words slip in the wrong direction
i’m left searching for them
any definition could do you no justice
no dictionary could possibly encompass any words to describe you
i can find no words
to fit the picture perfect moments that you are to me
just stand right there -
the mere thought of your presence
leaves me walking in a subconscious dream
where you did more than just take my breath away
and i can’t recover in time to tell you
that i’ve found my favorite reality lies within the world only known to myself
where you have not stepped foot in
comparable to the intangible galaxies
where you sing your songs of supernovas
left me with words i can’t speak
with a voice that has no sound
locked behind lips that will not open
and with my twisted tongue
i stand here
as you still stand…
right there…

standing there
seems like eternity has grappled my heart and
sucked my thoughts
leaving teardrops of speechless words wanting to speak
stunning verbs
to you…
so i take a step closer to see you..

and with just one step closer to you
in just a glance
almost like a moment i was gasping for breath
i see something totally unexpected
i can see the fear residing in your eyes
one step closer to you standing there…
although my words are still lost
in a sea of “sweet nothings” i can’t whisper to you
closer to you standing right there…

another step taken
its my chance to be open
its my opportunity
let go of all my worries
erase all my curiosities…
its time to see if i am ready..

one step closer
the door has been opened
behind it i see an opportunity
testing me - am i ready??
suddenly searching for the words is no longer an option…
my twisted tongue will have to do
i’m just too close to you now…
standing right there

i’m right here can you see me?

you've caught my eye for the past eternity

and i just wanted to say something to you for so long

i've just been scared of it sounding so wrong

and now my lips begin to break open and try to find the words to say to you

my tongue is no longer twisted when I look at you

and with one final conclusion i created my ultimatum

that this equation must end with you as its final sum

and my words are now complete

my thoughts are now obsolete – i am given the chance to speak

because it’s been a long time

and I’ve tried to split ever possible second

just to stand right here in front of you and say

hi.