well theres a party thing happening for me tonight

STODO took me out
and i realized so much of what kind of person she is
and it was just something to make me realize that it isnt that hard to do what she does
just need to have time for other people
is what i need to do yanno

she really made me cry inside when she came
got me balloons and a card
how wonderful she is
and how simply she did it for me
im glad i met her
and its just puts me back where...what kind of friend am i to deserve that
what have i done for her
and sometimes just being there is enough........

im still not excited to turn 21
im going through a relapse of myself
i want alone time
but how do i go about saying that