i was readin through my old xangas
and it felt as it was almost just a couple weeks ago everything happened
i could relive each moment
feel the emotion the people and the presence
it was understandable and also embarassing

im listening to the used right now
and im still not happy with what im doing
i thought i would be able to manage friends
but its hard because i just dont want to upset so many and feel like im hanging out with them because i dont see them
because i want to be with her because i dont have much time with her yanno
but then
the thing is...
with the friends i know
they cannot be mended together in anyways
there all on way different sides of their own spectrum
and i see no connection at all through them..
and where does that leave me

what kind of person am i?
does that mean there are so many different parts of me
that i cant even choose to be who i really am which is all of them...
i cant put it all together..i canot mend them together
and i know i would be satisfied if i would
but ill see whats happening...

im listening to the used...
great band..great music
great memories
good bye