i will hate you...

Sunday, April 08, 2007

my poetry

Differences lie solely between our mind and feet

Our soul has yet to be induced with inspirations from afar

But as time evolved, our differences became clear

Echoes had no resonating effect

It was as bold as if you were whispering in my ear sweet syllables of songs

You spoke to me through inclinations

I couldn’t climb alone

Your voice drove my soul into a bursting flame

If I could I would grasp your hand

Let you feel my warmth

Because this is what you’ve done to me

You ignited a flame so great that only

You can feed

It was all due to your being, your writing

If I could give you this pen in my hand

You would transcend into dreams you wish you had

With me

Because you know our dreams will come true

Through destiny

And tomorrow would be a mistake

If you weren’t by my side walking

I only stand for who you are to me

Take a step with me and together

We’ll discover untouched memories that will live on

But if your memory were to cease

I would spend each day

Reminding you of the story of you and me

I would let my voice carry years of happiness and sadness

Through your ears

You’ll always remember this

There is always someone to live for

Through patience you’ll see what you want

Through yourself you’ll find what you need

I’m here down on my knees with you

Differences lie solely between us

But respect intertwines us

Pages of poetry have no effect if your heart is empty

Let me dab my life into yours and paint

Red, purple, blue and yellow skies

To articulate for you the endless possibilities of words that will inspire your mind

Let me take melodies and beats

Mend them together to create food for your soul

Let me grab your heart infect it with my motivations

So you can live again

If together we speak

Our words will amplify our voices

You’ll stand for yourself

Because you know I could do this for you

And if ever you were to crumble

My cut hands will do it all again for you

My being will be poured into you

You will be molded by your soul

You implemented into me

Because that’s who I am

That’s who you are to me

I would not go back home to my family

I’ve got my own

Because to me you are my home

You are that little girl that stood with steel fists

Breaking down barriers with a flick of your wrists

You are that little girl whose voice intensifies as you speak

You are the girl with eyes engulfed in beauty

And if I could find the difference I have grown to be…

I would say

She is my difference

Because I write for her…my poetry…

sister slavery

She digs her fingernails into her skin

Swallows her pride

And cries her own dignity

Remember…

Remember my sister pinays

Walked along the pearl sand beaches of the homelands together

Remember my sister pinays weaved the winds of her kin together from day to night

Remember my sister pinays built beautiful temples from the golden diamonds in their chests

Remember my sister pinays had silhouettes of angels of the purist form

Remember my sister pinays, my sister pinays

Were women huntresses…

You were warrior princesses

You were Filipina queens

My sister pinays your beauty is our innocence, its our essence…

But now, your cries bellow underneath the darkest corridors

Slammed against by tormented fists to the head

A slap on the face to us

For the price of YOU and your bridal dress

This modern day slavery

Mail-order me blasphemy

Denigrates your beauty…

Your darkness, black bruises, has now infected your body

And now I cant even see your sun-golden skin

Cuz of men who can keep their dicks on check!

Egos bringing of un-satisfaction, jealousy, insecurities…

With their pathetic lives cuz they think they can steal some sweet Asian pussy

But see, pussy digs deeper than that

Innocence digs deeper than that

Pride digs deeper than that

Beauty digs deeper than that

Dignity digs deeper than that

Love digs deeper than that

But the only thing digging deeper INTO my sister pinays

Are samurai swords taking their lives

Wooden maces thrashing their thighs

Gunshots through their beautiful brown eyes

And the very thought of you crumbling under someone’s

Knees makes me think what happened to my Filipina queens…

See you used to stand so tall

Emulating the presence of the sun

You used to lay elegantly along the wilted grass under the

Prosperous mango trees…

But now your families are

Given some lame ass excuse

For rape of their innocence laying

On their front Porch

Knock knock!

Body bag…

Your daughter died of an unknown disease…

Knock knock!

Body bag…

Your daughter fell ill to a sickness across the seas

Knock knock!

Body bag

Your sister pinay sold herself to an egotistic guy

Who Beat her and Beat her and BEAT her

Until she died…

And now I can’t stop crying

Cuz these bags cause bags under our eyes

Because my sister pinays are dying inside…

All over the world my sisters are exploited

Through this sick slavery...

This maniacal aspect denigrates their souls…

But if we can remember her stories…

Then maybe..maybe we can resist this struggle…

when your sad read this

''When your sad…read this…''

Hey!

Can I ask you all a question?

So in a relationship

How many of you have been love..love or want to love?

Well how does it feel?

Do you think you can fall in love more than once?

Well I thought I fell in love TWICE..::skjtwicesjd::

Daymn that’s to much lovin

And you know what

I now believe that my past wasn’t love

But it felt so real

Or did I feel surreal?

I once thought love was the unbearable happiness and pain of the heart

That simple pinch of a thousand needles bleeding the heart

I thought love was the unending joy between two companions

Throughout life…

I thought love was UnConditional!

I HATE unconditional

Mayn FUK unconditional

I don’t want to be korny but

How many of you people love hearing what you want to hear

For example..

Babeee…babez..

I miss YOU

I miss you TOO

EVEN THO I JUST DROPPED YOU OFF like 5 MINS AGO!!!

5 MINS AGO!!

And you miss ME?!

Is that LOVE?!?!!

How about

I haven’t seen you in so long..

You’ve been on my mind every second every minute

Every hour

Daymn why you gotta break it down like that

Why cant u just say I though of you everyday but

I think I would kinda SCARE you if you knew how many times a day I did

OOOOOHHH!!

One of my favorites when a person is on your mind for a bit

Babee….wait wait..already used that

Gotta throw in the fruit flavored topping special name!

Honey Bunches Of Caramel

Strawberry Sweet Cakes

With a Cherry On Top!

You were the last thing I though of before I went to sleep

Last night

And the first think I thought of when I woke up this morning

ooooOOh

heart melting

tears come from my heart

YOUR SO SWEET!

WOW!!!

Who fall for that still!!

Raise your hands you know you little

People online talking all mushy

Trying to spit game on myspace

Looking for the right line

From quotes of love

You try to memorize

You know you have hidden documents with all these sweet lovable quotes

Somewhere

Don’t lie! You know you do..or DID

Mine used to be 5 pages long!

And I used about half of them

And you know where that GOT ME

It GOT ME RIGHT HERE!

All ALONE UP HERE

ALONE wondering if these expressions

Emotions meanings messages

Knowledge writings

Foreshadows

Had the real definition within love?

Was love just a jist of all of this?

I thought love was when you were together you couldn’t be apart?

I thought my heart exploded everytime we said goodbye

And everytime we said hello

I thought the stars would shine upon us when the moon was to weak

I thought promises would be forever

But what last forever than real love

Or is it love that I feel now?

Or is it something else?

Something greater or just something that started it all?

Well what starts love?

…to like…

what brings more happiness..

to love or to like?...

Id rather like someone

Than rupture another scar into my heart again

I don’t want no leather face HEART

You know freakin all chainsawed and shit…

I don’t want to be putting up a front with my heart

Rippin faces and put it upon myself…

Id rather like someone…

Just imagine

Think of that time when you found out you started to like someone…

How did that feel?

That first time you felt that tiny little spark…

That bite size little spark…

Everytime we are together

Im not obligated to feel apart!

My heart doest explode it breathes correctly

For once in long time it breathes correctly!

I thought love was everything

I thought love was to give the world to someone

But to give the world is too much beyond my own hands!

Plus who the hell wants the world ANYWAYS

Shits all fuked up!

Or would you rather like someone and give them time

To say hello every now and then

Even though you don’t know if they like you or not

You take the RISK

Cuz there is not much on the line as compared to love!

So my perspectives changed

How come I don’t feel that love I felt before?

Was it all infatuation?

Becuz now It just feels even more right

Than ever before

How come my skinny

Big headed really burnt brown

Dirty finger nails

Car loving word spoken

Pen passionate inspired little boy

Attracted

A bite size

Body slammin punch

Little feet

Maniac switch

Indescribable unending talkative

Dedicated will

Beautiful

BEAUTIFUL

Little girl as you

Yes I said it

You are Beautiful

Have you ever been called beautiful

Cuz everyone says its so sweet

I wanna be called beautiful

But with my loser ass up here

You can call me anything you want cuz I cant hear YOU!

So listen up

Remember your most memorable kiss

And compare it to this

X marks the spot on my cheek

Follow the path from her lips to my face

And land the treasure

Cuz that is my Most GANGSTAR

Most favoritist

Ever so sweet

Perfect kiss…

And I am to tell you

That all this I said is just gibberish

Cuz I only tried to explain to you how I feel

I TRIED

But

All I really wanted to say is

I’m in Like with you….